It saddens me knowing that things will never be the same anymore. Everything changed so quickly and I didn't even have the chance to say goodbye. But, goodbyes were never a option when we promised forever. Most of the time, I find myself back at what used to be home before you left, dreaming and wishing you were waiting for me too. But, her irresistible pulchritude caught your eyes and you moved on. I understand and I'm happy for you, but my heart still aches. It misses home although someone else is living there. It's no longer me.
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I sometimes think that you left me
but I know that it was me who left you. My eyes and hands left your body long before you walked out the door. Your name left my lips months ago when I stopped calling you mine. My mind hasn't had the ghost of you because I'm better off with people I have a living love for. And my heart as wicked and broken as it is- that was something you never really had. I live my life like an opened book
Go ahead and take a look I have problems, oh, yes indeed! I'll do anything in order to succeed. I might have scars upon my delicate skin I might have done everything I could just to stay thin I might have skipped a meal or two But all of this led me to you. There you were, you kept me from dying. At first, you asked me if I was okay and I kept lying. I told you I was perfectly okay You knew I was lying, you said that you'd make the pain go away/ So far your words have been true, You have no idea just how lucky I am to have someone like you. I know what we have is real I know exactly how you feel. We know how each other works We always put each other first But I let you in, and you didn't let me fall. With all the hatred that exists in the world I know that you'll always love me, and I'll always be your girl With all the deceit and all of the lies You know that I'll always love you, and you'll always be my guy. She lives in a world where life is a mystery
Nobody cares about what went down in history They care about happiness, they care about love She lives in a world that she dreams of. She lives in a world where there's no such thing as heartbreak They say you can only give as much as you take They borrow so no one has to steal She wishes that this world was real She lives in a world where wars aren't a thing The whole world is in a state of peace, there is no suffering. They care about inspiration She lives in a world of imagination. She lives in a world that has free wifi They're big on trust so nobody has to lie Life in this world seems to carefree If only this world wasn't a fantasy. Trusting people is hard to do
But everything seems easier when it comes to you. Smiles are effortless I feel helpless You make me feel flawless When I'm far from gorgeous You have me smiling in a store Happier than before Laying on the floor I'm not sad anymore You make me crazy When I want to be lazy I'm staring at daisies Because life is so hazy Nothing I'm saying seems to make sense But in my defense Life is intense I'm living on the edge as I lean against a fence I let my guard down When you're around It's hard to frown When you act like a clown I think of you and my face lights up How you call me your diamond in the rough I can't get enough I never seem to shut up What I'm trying to prove Is that my mind is a mess when it comes to you But you make trusting people easier to do. She looked out the window like some cliche scene in a music video or movie
She sat in her house, watching the snow fall. She didn't even bother to wipe away the tears falling from her eyes. She sat there, hoping that something would make her feel alive inside. She watched the snow as it slowly drifted in the wind. She wanted to be snow. She wanted to slowly drift away and be gone just like that. She felt nothing. The tears were nothing, they were involuntary. She honestly didn't know how she ever got like this. She didn't know how she lost her shine. But it was gone. She was a glow stick that ran out of shine. Once it was gone, she couldn't get it back. She tried so hard to find it again. She's now accepted the fact that she'll never shine again. She'll never be as happy as she once was. One more time, she looked out the window. The snow was gone. It painted the ground white, but now it was gone. She wanted that to be her. To make a small impact on the world and then be gone just like that. That was her dream. She just didn't know how to get there. She didn't know where to start. She walked away from the window, going to the corner to stay in the dark. She just wanted a change. She craved a change. She wanted to feel alive. But that's easier said than done. She was snow. She wasn't alive, but she was noticed. All she wanted was to be snow. But she already was. I was broken, crying out for help.
My mind was racing, and it wouldn't stop. I looked at you and time froze. You asked me what my name was You said you liked the way it sounded You made my heart flutter. We started talking I told you how I was broken You walked away, and I thought you left But you came back with a bottle of glue Saying, Don't worry, I promise that I'll fix you. For a while, we were perfect I loved you and you loved me But we got bored of each other/ I was so broken that I fell for everything I believed everything you told me Especially when you said you would fix me You never did So you lied You led me to believe that you'd fix me But the entire time, you were hurting me. You were toxic, but you were intriguing Falling for you was like falling off a cloud and onto a bed of nails The fall was exhilarating, but the crash was excruciating. I loved you a lot, even when you left I thought you'd come back Because I believed you. I thought that you fixed me And maybe you did But all I know is that when you left You left me more broken than I was before So you lied. She loved him.
She loved him a lot. She could tell that he wasn't perfect. But she didn't want perfect. She wanted him. He played hard to get Because in all honesty He didn't want her But she was too naive. She kept telling herself that he loved her And that they would end up together But that wasn't the case. She waited for him to get his shit together She didn't care what he had to do in order for that to happen She watched him as he went down the wrong path and shut her out But he convinced himself that he was happy. She came to her senses, she moved on. She met a different boy that was far from perfect But he came to his senses too He realized he loved her But she had moved on. It happens way too often in his world We wait and wait Not exactly knowing what we're waiting on But we wait too long. She waited, but eventually gave up. She's happy. He waited until she gave up. And now he's dying inside. I get it, you know that I always will.
I'm a firm believer in trying. But you just gave up When you started lying. I wanted help, I needed help. Hell, I still do, But you're not the one that can help me anymore Because I no longer trust you. You might think I'm crazy, That's technically not a lie. But that disappointing look you give me, Makes me want to die. I needed your help, But all you did was hurt me. I cried myself to sleep at night, Hoping that it would set me free. You were the light at the end of the tunnel, Telling me everything would be fine. But the tunnel eventually caved in, Signifying that you were no longer mine. Sooner or later I will get over you. I can't wait until that day. You used to be my world, But now I would love nothing more than for you to go away. You made it clear that you're not here for me. It's obvious that you never cared, But you let me believe otherwise, And that's just not fair. So I guess this would be goodbye if you were ever there in the first place. My heart will eventually stop yearning for you, and my brain will eventually stop picturing your face. Insanity at it's finest,
Everything I've ever known has been torn apart. Slowly going insane. Living without a heart. I don't know how to love, But I can definitely feel That you tried to steal my heart, But there's nothing there to steal. I'm not a good person, And I'm sorry that I'm a mess,. I'm a jigsaw puzzle, And you tried your best. I've tried really hard to open up, I've tried even harder to let you in. I thought that I liked you, But I can't even call you a friend. So I just want to add that I'm doing you a favor, You don't want someone that's clinically insane. Because I don't want to hurt you, And I can't control my nonexistent heart or my confused brain. |